I started believing I could get over you....so here I am doing just that.
It is still hard to block thoughts about you. My mind still plays tricks on me and sometimes it is difficult to control the flashbacks...but slowly but surely I am becoming effective in blocking them.
That does not mean that I am happy now. I am still down most of the time...but I am not as depressed as before.
I am finally moving on with my life...a life with you as just a friend...actually more of an officemate that I say hi and bid goodbye to six days of the week.
It still upsets me a bit to see you texting all the time and ignoring me...but I will get used to it and desensitize myself eventually.
I gave in to seeing you today...thinking you will notice me. Sad to say you did not. You just answered my questions briefly and were so preoccupied with your phone.
You said you would be meeting your first girlfriend...and I do not know why I seemed more upset that you were texting your second. My hurt ego perhaps? Because you chose her instead of me...
I am proud of myself though...I could handle it. Saddening but I am moving on now.
Because you are not giving me a reason not to.
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